a, aa, aaa...disorientated.

beda satu huruf a, dua huruf a, dan tiga huruf a, pun sejuta huruf a yang kuteriakkan di sudut hati (dekat perut) tadi pagi. lelah cuma satu alasan. dua sedih. tiga kecewa. kamu percaya kekecewaan ada karena adanya harapan? aku tidak. kekecewaan ada karena kamu berhenti berharap. dan terus mencari adalah bentuk harapan.

Looking for a different space
Searching for my inner place
Out of patience out of balance out of time
Out of breath out of focus these shapes in my mind

semalam langit kota semburat merah. sementara di sisiku hilang kabut, damai gelap bersama tetesan embun yang tak sabar menunggu pagi. jemari menggigil. punggung dan dahi yang menghangat. secangkir kopi dan selimut tipis.

Who is this face I see
Why is this happening to me
Out of patience out of balance out of time
Out of breath out of focus these shapes in my mind

kehadiran yang terasa menghangatkan hati.

Things are changing
So much arranging of my life
I must take hold
I'll keep on spinning until I find myself again

selembut wajah yang tersenyum dan membisikkan lagu cinta. surga di bumi. surga di bumi. menundukku tak sanggup menatap wajahnya, meski ingin, meski ingin. cintaku, cintaku.

So I woke up and there's the moon
Seems to have risen just a little soon
But who's calling out my name anyway?

melayang

Walking in a different space

terbang

Love is forever
Hate was in the never
Out of patience out of balance out of time
Out of breath out of focus these shapes in my mind

hilang bentuk

So I woke up and there's the clock
It was ticking backwards had I forgot
But what day is it anyway

hilang bentuk sekali lagi

I'm disorientated
I'm trying not to be jaded
When it's all so complicated
'Cause I'm a little disorientated

manusia macam apa, harus jatuh untuk meresapi bentuk, harus tertimpa langit baru merasa hidup, harus tersesat baru menemukan (ditemukan??). macam aku? terserah. terserah. memang terserah. u troubled.

So I woke up and saw the sun
Seems like my life has just begun
How 'bout I start it today anyway

ya, bagaimana?

-sound track: delta goodrem, disorientated.